The Finding

I go through a lot of dry prayer, a lot of empty feeling, and that's what the finding of the child Jesus makes me think of. When in dry prayer I tend to start feeling hopeless. I push the thought away over and over but it always springs back trying to overtake my heart. Maybe that's what Mary and Joseph began feeling. Maybe they began to fear and give up but those thoughts could not have lasted more than a moment; the deep rooted, fierce love for their child would have quickly doused all such lies. They loved Him and so kept up the search for Him and were rewarded with great joy. Likewise, when in dry prayer, we must keep searching, looking, fighting for our Lord because of Love. He loves us and we adore Him. As Thrice's song The Weight says, "Come what may I won't abandon you or leave you behind because love is a loyalty sworn, not a burning for a moment." Nobody said it would be easy but the fight is so completely worth it. Think of the joy in those brief moments of intimacy in adoration or communion. Now imagine that magnified for eternity. That's what we're fighting for.