Encouragement

Yesterday morning I was feeling so in love with God and really fired up - I was determined to never fall, planning to recognize the devil's attacks and fight them off. But by the end of the day I was feeling so incredibly tired and slow. Something would happen, I would react badly to it and then later realize "dang!' that was the attack I was going to ward off and I didn't even realize it. That was the opportunity to grow in virtue. Ok, I really can do this the next time..." But it would keep happening. By the end of the night I was just really discouraged. Today, I was still feeling discouraged but I felt God pulling me toward adoration so, during one of my studies, I went. I am SO glad I did. As soon as I entered and kneeled down I felt His Presence. I felt His Consolation. It was as if there had been a metal box or a trap around my heart, weighing it down and blocking out the Good, that was suddenly broken and fallen off. I felt so light and free. I felt His calm,refreshing Peace. I realized that I had fallen into doubt but I did not feel crushed by this realization. I was thankful for the challenge He gave me to teach me. He is guiding me to Him and I have no reason to doubt Him - my wonderful,perfect,merciful Lord :)